why write?

I pronounced a way to keep silence, then h? came...

he never says no
he got that overturned euphoria
i think hes the prove that air have left him,
as if the letters left me without games
can you tell me how each meticulous insomnia leeds me to you,
i wasn't dead, a black parenthesis got thru my back
it screams YOU in all the ways

Between interchange?ble nights, numbers forms a consequence. I dont want to dissappoint him, once again the countless dripping, the uncriptable in front of my eyes drives me impulsive
Can you tell how indifference means forgiveness.
Can you tell wh?t i already know? Can you tell me how t? get t? you?

so, why write? in order not to die